4 years already..

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you! Happy birthday, dear Angel, happy birthday to you!

My Angel is 4 years old today and despite the rain, it's been a really good day.
I woke her up a little early and while she snuggled in with Jonas, woke up properly and opened her first present which contained a bunch of clothes, I made breakfast; heated rolls and fresh pineapple pieces.
After breakfast, she had a quick shower before getting dressed in a beautiful summerdress she got in her present. Then off to kinder garden to play and celebrate with the other kids. They made cake and bead plates.
I went and bought her a few things for entertainment on the road to vacation tomorrow and also some things she's been wishing for. A pink gel ball and plastic snakes, insects etc that she got when I picked her up.
Jonas had decided that dinner was a trip to Mac Donald's, he knew she would love that. And she did indeed!
The rest of the evening was spend watching 'An Extremely Goofy Movie' on TV, cuddling on the couch and drawing a bit before she asked to be put to bed.

I hope she had a really good day <3

A rose is a rose..

There.. 2 years of blogging, deleted..
Except from a few posts that I felt like I needed to save..
The rest is gone and forgotten, there was nothing more I wanted to remember from that period of time. I'm turning over a new leaf, I guess you could say.


At this very moment, I'm awaiting a happily not-so-sober man to come home for a late night dinner.
I found the most beautiful red rose today when taking a walk with my daughter. I know he loves red roses.
But I didn't pluck it, didn't touch it, didn't want to ruin it's beauty.
So when he wakes up tomorrow and turn on his computer, the first thing he'll see, is a beautiful, bright red rose, covered in small drops of rain.


I took a picture of it.

*Edit*

He gave me a beautiful pocket watch when he came home. I can't take a proper picture of it but it looks a little like the one below except it has more details, golden hands and in the middle it says; TEMPUS EDAX RERUM. Time, devouring of all things.

I love it..

Just another lovestruck blog

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You Are My Rock


Oh oh oh I, oh oh oh I 
If I wrote a book about where we stand 
The title of my book would be "Life with Superman" That's how you make me feel I count you as a privilege This love is so ideal 
I'm honored to be in it 
I know you feel the same I see it everyday 
And all the things you do And all the things you say You are my rock 
Baby you're the truth 
You are my rock 
I love to rock with you 
You are my rock 
You're everything I need 
You are my rock 
So baby rock with me 
I wanna kiss ya, feel ya, please ya just right 
I wanna touch ya, love ya, baby all night 
Reward ya, for all the things you do 
You are my rock 
I love to rock with you 
I love to rock with you Oh oh oh I 
If I wanna try to count the ways You make me smile 
I'll run out of fingers Before I run out of time 
Theres things to talk about Sugar you keeps it going on 
Make me wanna keep my lovin strong 
Make me wanna try my best 
To give you what you want and what you need 
Give you my whole heart, not just a little piece 
More than a minimum, 
I'm talking everything 
More than a single wish, 
I'm talking every dream 
You are my rock 
Baby you're the truth 
You are my rock 
I love to rock with you 
You are my rock 
You're everything I need 
You are my rock 
So baby rock with me 
I wanna kiss ya, feel ya, please ya just right 
I wanna touch ya, love ya, baby all night 
Reward ya, for all the things you do 
You are my rock 
I love to rock with you 
I wanna rock with you 
If There's options I dont want them 
They're not worth my time 
Cause if it's not you, oh no thank you I like us just fine 
You're a rock in the sand You're a smile in a cry You're my joy through the pain 
You're the truth through the lies 
No matter what I do I know that I can count on you Oh oh oh I, oh oh oh I 
You are my roc 
Baby you're the truth 
You are my roc 
I love to rock with you 
You are my rock 
You're everything I need 
You are my rock 
So baby rock with me 
I wanna kiss ya, feel ya, please ya just right 
I wanna touch ya, love ya, baby all night 
Reward ya, for all the things you do 
You are my rock 
I love to rock with you 
I love to rock with you Oh oh oh I, oh oh oh I 
I wanna kiss ya, feel ya, please ya just right 
I wanna touch ya, love ya, baby all night 
Reward ya, for all the things you do 
You are my rock 
I love to rock with you 
I wanna rock with you

"I'm yours with heart, body and soul" he tells me

Okay, I caved, I gave in, I fell..
After months of denying, refusing and swearing it would never happen, I let myself fall so in love..
Soon to be a month ago, the 7th of september to be exact, I told him just to tease him(because I knew what he was hiding and how bad he wanted it) that the day before we had been lovers for a month.
'Unfortunatly', my teasing backfired when he threw the "so I guess I could say 'happy delayed one month anniversery, honey' " with a big smile on his face, knowing it would make me tick and want to flee...
About an hour later when cuddling on the couch, he went and asked me if we should make it official or if I wanted to deny it for another months time. I dodged and said I didn't want to talk about things like that with Angel awake and whining, hoping he would leave it be.
But no...
As soon as he was sure she was fast asleep, he pinned me to the couch, making sure I wouldn't just flee and told me he wanted an answer, a simple yes or no. And oh how I wanted to flee, run away and hide..
But looking into those bright, forest coloured eyes and feeling those strong arms, warm wrapped around me; tight but softly, I knew I didn't really want to go anywhere, I just wanted to stay put. I wanted him to be mine and I his and even though the realisation made me panic inside and every fiber of my mind and body was screaming to get away, my heart told me to stay..
And so I did..

I still barely believe it's true, I keep thinking it'll end any time now, that it isn't real..
I didn't think I would ever really fall in love again, and especially not now..
But he keeps reassuring me that it's real, he ain't going anywhere and there isn't anything he won't do for me and if he mess up, he'll do anything to mend it and not repeat it..
He don't mind my mess, my quirks, my flaws, my tendenses to jealousy don't even bother him..

Every day that goes by, every kiss, every sweet word whispered into my ear, every decleration of his love, all maked me fall more and more in love with him..

Am I ready?

At the foot of the mountain, I think it through, am I ready?

Through twisted paths, steep climbs and stormy weather, I mount it.

At the top of the mountain, I breath deeply, am I ready?

Through wind and snow and biting cold, I run across it.

At the edge of the mountain, I panic, am I ready?

-Midnight

The Perfect Date.

-except, it wasn't really a date, now, was it?
Anyway, my sister picked up Angel Saturday afternoon and I just had time for a shower and getting dressed before the skagen guy who is now gonna be called Tiger in here, came and decided he wanted to take me out for sushi like he promised a long time ago.
We ended up at Sushi Sushi where I told him to take lead and order so he decided to let the chef surprise us with their best.
And I must say it was great. I love sushi! And he was the perfect company for this experience, my first time on a fancy sushi restaurant.

As we ended the the meal with some hot Sake, we agreed that we were defiantly doing this again. But without the Flyfish caviar next time, we just don't trust that bright orange stuff. This concept created a lot of fun during the evening.
Aftwerwards we took a stroll on the harbor, watching the water, kissing and cuddling, talking about what a great romantic evening this was, despite the lack of romance and that we weren't a couple.
So we went to Irish House for a few drinks and a laugh before taking a stroll down Jomfruanegade and having a few drinks at the Rock Café before deciding it was time to go home.
Sunday, we spend most of the day in the nude, cuddling, teasing and just relaxing before separating.
It was amazing...

-Midnight

Pizza buns

The time is close to midnight, I'm sitting in my kitchen waiting for the dow to swell. I'm making pizza buns.
I find myself thinking of the past two weeks and how much time we've spend together, how much we text each other when apart and how fond I've grown of his company.
This is a bad thing.
Why?
Because along with those cozy evenings, snuggled up on the couch together, the cuddling in late nights and early mornings, the deep and intense kisses, a little green beast starts to wake and roam around a little. Thoughts and worries I have no interest in or right to have starts to form in my mind and I push them away quickly.
I should probably have a talk with him about this and take a little break away from him, not having him around for a while.

-Midnight